Smell The Irony

Life is an irony sometimes.

Where I was deeply moved by a cover made by one of my favourite artist Joanna Wang on a great oldy song translated as "Lifetime Waiting" (not very good translation, but Chinese words are too unique), I was thinking about how great will this song be if I could dedicate this to my future beloved husband/ bf.

As I was repeating this some this morning, I went to 'update' myself on one of my close friend's blog, I read about her lost of her grandmother. How irony, that the song actually fits that situation?!

I can't help it by reminding myself of my big aunt's death recently. She has been a lovely women her whole life and had acted as a mother-figure to my mom, since the death of my grandmother. My mom was really closed to her. She died because of illness, but one can't not pity how she went ill. It was a great tragic that she just had a minor fall from home bathroom and led to the discovery of some bone cancer. She was a vegetarian during her late life, which might help explaining perhaps why her bones are not strong. She suffered so much during the last months. What's glad about it is how her husband, my uncle went as high as the mountain, as deep as the sea (what chinese says 上山下海) to find the best medicine and best doctor to treat her. He himself was old too, in fact older than my aunt. Cut the long story short, she passed away few weeks ago.

When I knew about that news, I was so busy here in life that I didn't have a fair time to moan about her death. I prayed, and I just moved on. Smell the irony? How life can be so not right sometimes that could actually lead to a different outcome?


ps: Although the sun is up high and shiny today, my heart just feel so gloomy....

给未来的你

等待着你，等待你慢慢靠近我

陪着我长长的夜到尽头，被让我独自守候

等待着你，等待你轻轻拉我的手

陪着我长长的路慢慢走，一直到天长地久

等待着你，等待你紧紧拥抱着我

告诉我你的心里只有我，除了我别无选择

你知道这一生，我只为你执着

管别人心怎么想，眼怎么看，话真么说

你知道这一生，我只为你守候

我对你情那么深，意那么浓，爱那么多

那闪光

或许,

去英国最向往的,

是寻找属于自己的

那闪光。

The New MyDistress Application

Ho, ho, ho! It's so rare I blog these days right? Ya, I hate to admit it that life is busy and thoughts have mostly parked themselves nicely in my brain and never came out again. :(

Anyway, I'm here to talk about the newly launched MyDistress application. It's a mobile application that was launched on Wednesday, 24 August 2011 by the Selangor Police. It was a co-developed application with a mobile phone software developer called Cconvep Mobilogy Sdn. Bhd.

Well, I got to know about the app via my sister, as she was happily pointing out her friend being the model holding an iPhone 4 for his brother which was the team in inventing the app. She encouraged me to download it as the sister was telling the friends (including my sister) over a BBQ party to help support the brother's good cause and help create some news over the radar.

So I decided to give it a try. Googled it through my phone, found the site mydistress.net and my mobile phone directly prompted me to download it. OK, so I downloaded the app, and checked that out. I was really impressed with the app. It can actually track down your location using GPS! Of course, your phone will need to have GPS to do so, but the point it, SO COOL! No more worries of miscommunication! I quickly registered myself, not knowing much hidden clause. Oh, they also had all the contact numbers of the police stations in Selangor, including emails! That's really helpful right?

However, just today, when I was about to tell my other girl friends about this 'great' news, one of my tech-geek guy friend mentioned that they will charge a monthly subscription of RM2 starting from January 2012! What? Charging you monthly for what? Apparently it's for the upkeep of the system and no profit is gained by the developer.

Well, it does make sense that you need $MONEY$ to upkeep a system, but why are you charging the rakyat? I understand that it is pretty much a self-help system, which maybe its quite a premium 'service' so to say if we use it. There might be well argued that no all rakyat has a mobile phone, what more that this app only work on smartphones? It's clearly not fair for those rakyat that don't own a phone and not getting the service to be contributing to the service via paying taxes? True! That point is valid! But, on the flip side, is it reasonable to charge RM2 EVERY SINGLE MONTH? What is really such a big expense that you need to charge people every single month? I don't quite understand that part. They could well charge by per usage! RM2 per usage to safe my life.... reasonable? Hell ya!

So my verdict: Good initiative but same old, same old.... pushing the cost to rakyat. With so much initiative to make Malaysia a better and more developed nation, can't Selangor government absorb the cost? I really hope this app will actually continue to create more discussion and leads to a Federal government's decision of providing it as free service nation wide. They are promoting e-government right? I suppose this is in line with that?

ps: currently, only on iPhone this app looks the 'coolest' as on blackberrys and symbian/nokia phones, it looks a bit cacat/ not as user-friendly as iPhone's version. :(

When you remember the day, don't forget that feeling.

22 August 2011

Learning to Walk Again

60 Days Left

There is exactly 60 days left before I embark on my journey to study in UK. 60 days only!!! I'm gonna HAVE to live my life as if I'm going to die in 60 days time. *touch wood*

I realise I can't afford to miss anymore opportunity, wait or hessitate any longer when is comes to DOING SOMETHING. So I'm creating a checklist for myself here. Not to say I need all people on this earth to know this, but my blog is suppose to commemorate the memories I had! So here is goes. You may skip this post from here onwards.

Goals:

* 50 days left: Researched well regarding Visa application

* 40 days left: Planned all mamak-ing session with friends

* 30 days left: Embarked on a family trip

* 20 days left: Start writing to your love ones telling them your appreciation

* 10 days left: Last farewell sessions & finish packing bags

* 5 days left: Have brought at least 1 family member to church

* 1 day left: Called all the people that I need to call

Blooper: why do we need to touch wood when we say something bad luck-ish?

To The Ends of The Earth

I hope I will be able to still sing this song passionately 10 years down the road.

Love UNFAILING

Overtaking my heart

You take me in

Just found a very nice version on youtube. They're really talented and are Singaporeans! :) *thumbs up* Love their harmonising :D

Friends Along The Way That Had Truly Stayed

It's funny how people come and go in your life. Meeting interesting people with such different personality or meeting annoying people that will really get to your nerves sometimes. What makes an acquittance a friend? I think the answer would be those who you've shared moments in life which are truly significant to you, where they have maybe fought a war with you, went the extra miles with you, or even sharing the intimate moments with you.

I am glad that I've made many friends along the way in life. Not to say I've already gone through all stages in life and I know everything about life, but I think FRIENDS are the once I cherish the most and are blessed with many good ones.

To the friends that has allowed me to be a part of their life, I thank them for being part of mine too. Distance might separate us apart but the memories will not fade, as you have truly stayed in a corner of my memories.

:)

Letters to My Lord 001

Lord,

This is my first public letter expressing my love to You.

Thank You for being so faithful ever since I know You and thank You for loving me even before I knew You.

Thank You for showing your grace as I prepared for my exams. Yesterday, I did the exam, not by my own strength, but Yours. Wow, that was whole lot of difference!

Thank You for showing peace to me. You know so well what I am going through even better than myself. Calming my raging heart and made me able to conquer all the challenges.

Thank You for pouring your love to me. Your love has flood my heart and it is just so overwhelming that sometimes I think I can't breath and weep the tears of joy.

I think I'm just out of words. I don't know what else could I say or do to ever repay what You've done for me. Thank You once again for Jesus that died on the cross for me and I love You God!

爱的就是你

一首简单的歌，让我很想变成你的唯一。

Can you feel my world? 此刻你心里想起谁？

你不知道的事，在每一秒里都想见到你，但你不在。。。 杜 U Love Me?

星期六的深夜， 我需要人陪。

如果你听见我的歌，这不完整的旋律，为我哭一次好不好？

春雨里洗过的太阳， 让我知道我爱错了，因为两个人不等于我们。

Love, love, love, 让我不愿说再见。

One of these days, 我会乘着爱自由的飞。

愛在哪裡，我需要愛的鼓勵？ 爱你等于爱自己。

王力宏，你是我心內的一首歌。

Kiss Goodbye，我会改變自己，因为我爱的就是你。

My Belated New Year Resolution

It's February already, without realising. I guess like old people used to say, when you grow up, years pass by faster and faster each year. So I guess is time for me to cherish every moment in life. The happiness in life is the greatest gift.

So, my new year resolution is to Smile!

Smile to everyone.

Smile keeps one positive.

Smile is influential.

Smile is powerful.

Smile is joy. :)

比。唱

比。

我不想比，
但是四处一望，
人人都在比。

比什么？
什么都有的比。
比才智，比美貌；
比有钱，比有权。

我，
最可怕的是，
比才华。
害怕面对前敌
而失落的心。

也许，
我是懦弱的人；
也许，
我是不爱面对现实的人；
也许，
因为梦里永远是完美的，
所以害怕现实。


~~~~~

唱。

也许说我热爱唱歌，
不如说我热爱音乐带来的生命力，
让我可以逃脱现实的烦恼，
逃脱去别人的故事里。

爱唱歌，
可以当饭吃吗？
妈妈说不能。
但是为什么哥哥姐姐们，
都去当歌手了呢？

歌手、明星、音乐人，
你爱哪个称呼呢？
一切感觉太复杂了，
所以聆听者，
最无牵挂。

~~~~~

爱唱歌的心，
往哪里藏？

爱舞台的梦，
往哪里埋？

爱肯定的我，
往哪里去？

我， 20 了。

如果你真正的热爱一样东西，你会不顾一切地付出，无疑地享受着享受着牺牲。


2011 年了，终于 ‘-teen’ years 已经过去了。
我不知道，踏入人生第二十个年头的我，是否对自己负起了责任。
我，活在这个世界上，到底学会了什么？
而又能够用什么来回馈这个社会所对我的栽培呢？
不要把我想得那么伟大，因为我并没有要对这个社会作一些惊天动人的事。
而是，我，身长在这个世界上快二十年了，我领悟到什么，学习到什么？

璇子，有人为了生存而逃命。。。

有人为了糊口而卖命。。。

而你，拥有了那么多，有什么资格堕落？有什么资格浪费生命的每一天呢？

今日名句：明日复明日，明日何其多。日日复明日，万事成蹉跎。


我，热爱生命吗？

Childhood vs Future

Suddenly, I think of playing masak-masak. Yes, believe your eyes, is masak-masak. The game kids play out of paper and plastic and pretending they are cooking. I guess I'm missing some childhood memory here.

Got my random that day and watch this on Youtube and I told myself: "Ah~! They were my childhood idol! Gosh... it's so long a go already! We've all grown up and so does things around me. Those days, we listen to music using cassettes! And walala, we have internet now and would can never imagine life without it anymore." *sighs*

Just realised something just now, I think I have a 'thing' for guys that plays/ sings well. I'm definitely those girls that fall for guys that takes a guitar and sings love songs in front of me. Haha. So typical right? Ah~! But the best part of it is, I'll love to sing along with him too! So I suppose, another criteria to my BF-checklist is need to love singing Karaoke, since my whole family does that. It's gonna be part of our very own Chin family activity I tell you! I ain't kidding! Imagine your uncle will be singing an oldies and your auntie pops in and sing along and soon enough you see from the youngest cousin to your grandma is opening their mouth and singing the same song. Gosh. Imagine that and what you see is my lovely family. :D I love them lots~!!! *muaks*

Keeping things short!

Urgh! I need to complain about myself. I always attempt to write posts and tend to write so damn long till I always make the flow of thought gone in the half way because I got distracted by other stuff.

So from now on, I'll learn to keep posts short and sweet. Good for my readers (if any) and good for me too. Hope this will make me write more often. Like one of my friend once said: how can life be interesting when one can't even write and express his/ her feelings?

OK, my first short post here.

I was glad today spending quality times with people I care for in life. :D

I know I don't need to worry about how my Mr. Right should be because I know He will provide the man in my life. :D

>>>THE END<<<